loveless ;

This is just a another phase.

2012-01-14T17:19:00.002+11:00

You know what they say about girls having mood swings?

I'm sure that's true..

Feeling better just thinking about how in 5 hours I will be done with work!

Can't wait to go home and sleeeeep

Rude, honest, or just plain heartless?

2012-01-14T14:42:00.002+11:00

I know my face is horribly ugly, with it being overtaken by the worst case of acne and all.

I know I'm fat and I need to lose weight.

There's no instant make over.

It took me 6 months for my face to break out like this.

I couldn't help it, I wasn't having my stupid women-thing for 10 months.

That caused the break out and now it's getting better albeit slowly.

Fat? I'm trying my best okay?

I know my flaws well.

But once every few days, someone has to mention something about it.

And it hurts every time.

Today I woke up with a little bit more self esteem than yesterday.

Next thing I know, I'm down to 0 all over again.

It's so hard to survive in this era of society while looking anything but the 'ideal type'.

Sometimes it's better to just lock yourself away from every one.

I should also think about developing an eating disorder or something.

Maybe that would shut people up.

And today, I just can't believe in karma.

Every time I do something nice, I get something bad in return.

It doesn't pay to be nice.

Most people try to make carbon copies of themselves.

2011-12-10T02:16:00.002+11:00

Some people have kids so that their kids can be exactly like themselves, or something they could never be in their lifetime.

I admit I've always wanted to be a dancer/gymnast/awesome musician/football player/competitive motorcyclist etc and when I have kids I want them to be dancers, gymnasts, musicians, athletes... all those dreams that I can never achieve. I want to have beautiful, happy, intelligent kids. Who wouldn't?

I definitely do not one a kid like myself.

Short, overweight, unhealthy, terrible complexion, ugly teeth, untalented... The only thing I am not is stupid. Other than that, I'm nobody's dream kid.

I am definitely not like my mum. I doubt I am her dream child either. She doesn't say much but I know she wants to bring up my half sister to be the kid I never could be - healthy, tall, sporty, beautiful. She is going to be a dancer and most probably a hockey player too. She's probably gonna even start yoga from age 5. She will grow up healthy and beautiful. Slim. Sometimes I feel my mum secretly hates me. I hope not.

I doubt I am my dad's dream child either. I hardly ever talk to him anymore. But I can tell my half sister from his side will most probably grow up in a nice happy family.

Maybe things would have been different if I was the perfect kid.

Can you tell by Ra Ra Riot

2011-08-13T12:47:00.002+10:00

Oh, have I been too discrete?

How long am I suppose to wait?

I think about you nightly.

Oh, can you tell I'm losing sleep?

Oh, what am I suppose to do?

It's hard to stay cool.

Oh, when you smile at me.

And I get nervous every time you speak.

My bed's too big for just me.

When you turn your eyes,

I promise I won't care.

Oh, standing by your sister fair.

Oh baby, baby, baby, please.

My heart sinks to my feet.

Oh, what am I suppose to do?

I think about you nightly.

My bed's too big for just me.

When you turn your eyes,

I promise I won't care.

Oh, standing by your sister fair.

When I look into your eyes,

I tend to lose my thoughts.

Don't forget your stare,

Oh, what was that you said?

Would you let me know?

Cause I can't read your mind.

Oh, can you tell?

I can't even explain.

Oh, baby I can't even explain.

Oh, what am I suppose to do?

It's hard to stay cool.

Oh, when you smile at me.

And I get nervous every time you speak.

Oh, standing by your sister fair.

2011-08-10T22:48:00.002+10:00

A lecturer was telling us how females choose males that smell the most attractive to them. Well apparently scent is genetic so what we are "smelling" are actually genes. And interestingly, we are most attracted to scents whose genes are very different from our own - thus improving the immune system of our offspring. Can you imagine if you are attracted to a scent similar to your own? That'll be like, inbreeding or something. Hah.

And the whole time, I was sitting next to someone I like. And I was very very VERY aware of his scent. I couldn't stop sniffing hahahah.

He smells heavenly xx

2011-07-31T16:34:00.002+10:00

Friday night was...a little fuzzy but pretty good I guess. Not the part where I decided to attack the floor though. That was embarrassing.

Well, at least I didn't drink enough to puke. That would have sucked.

Been having a bit of a sore throat the past few days meh. And I've got to go to work in....an hour.

Hope you had a great weekend xx

A sense of accomplishment;

2011-07-25T22:15:00.004+10:00

My work shirt is puffy at the shoulders. It makes you look like a T.

I think I just made a new song! Part of a song.

Actually it's only two lines hah.

It sounds fine to me, but who knows, it might be really horrible hahaha.

I think I'm gonna title the song "Fate".

I need some lyrics

2011-07-23T08:38:00.002+10:00

Actually awake at 8:30am on a Saturday! This is quite a feat. I don't usually wake up til after noon, hence the nickname "princess" given to me by my mummy hahahah.

Took a nap at 10.30pm but I slept all the way til this morning so my lights were all switched on, contact lenses were drying my eye balls out and I still had make up on my face hahahah so I woke up feeling pretty horrible. Maybe that's why I woke up early.

Gonna watch Harry Potter today, finally!

Have an awesome day! The morning looks pretty good already =)

Questioning my existence;

2011-07-22T21:36:00.002+10:00

Maybe I was born to be ditched my entire life.

Maybe I was born to die alone.

Maybe I wasn't even meant to be born.

Give me a reason to live.

Feeling a little soulless,

It's as if I got kissed by a dementor.

Sigh;

2011-07-21T19:23:00.002+10:00

Received a call from my grandma just an hour ago and she told me that she transferred money for me. It's just enough for me to go on a trip to Ben Lomond this Sunday! Got all excited to be able to go snow boarding again but then I had to find out that it was cancelled because there isn't enough people going. Siiiiigh. Amanda promised there would be another trip there next year. NEXT YEAR. That's too long fml.

School was pretty boring today and chem practical was meh, as usual. Am so tired I think I might turn in at 10pm. Then again, I can't seem to sleep before midnight zzz.

Anyways, I'm in love with this song.

All at once, everything is different.

Semester Two;

2011-07-19T19:53:00.003+10:00

Told my lovely cuzzy that I'll take a photo of my red nails so there you go. Not the best photo but whatever hahaha.

So! Second semester commenced last week. Initially I thought I had a really great timetable. Little did I know I am dead wrong.

Monday

12pm-3pm with an hour break

Tuesday

9am-6pm with a total of 3 hour break in between

Wednesday

9am-6pm with an hour or, if I skip PASS sessions, 3 hour break

6.15pm WORK

Thursday

11am-6pm with an hour break

Friday

9am-3pm with 2 hour break

Not so great after all eh? Wednesdays are gonna be bad, since I have an early 9am start and won't get home til about 11pm. But busy is good. I'd rather be busy than have lots of unused time in my hands.

Plus, I'm actually liking the subjects I'm doing now (maybe not so much of data & stats) so I guess it wouldn't be too bad either.

And I've yet to watch Harry Potter. Heard mixed reviews for it, but I'm sure it'll be great. Just gotta find time to watch it!

Also, I've decided that I will start studying earlier this semester and I will (try to) revise as much as I can. With that, I think I really should get back to doing my data & stats project wooo fun, fun, fun.

Hopefully I won't burn out by mid-semester bahahahah

Expectations only bring disappointments;

2011-07-07T23:41:00.002+10:00

Guys are so difficult to understand.

It's so hard to figure out what they're thinking, what they're trying to get at, what they want.

I don't know what to do.

I've been more initiative than I ever was because I have a new belief - if you do not go after what you want, you'll never get it.

I'm trying to go for it, but it's so hard.

Sometimes I think he wants it too, but then he does something that completely throws me off.

Maybe he doesn't want it.

I'm just over thinking every little thing.

No.

He does not want it too.

No, he does not.

NO.

He probably likes someone else.

Yes.

Yes, he likes someone else.

And she probably likes him too.

Yes.

Nothing will happen between us.

Nothing, ever.

Never.

Moves I can do with my eyebrows;

2011-06-26T21:49:00.003+10:00

There's only about 4 of them but heyyy better than none!

Movies I've watched the past few days:

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1

Clash of the Titans

Prince of Persia: Sands of Time

X-Men Origins: Wolverine

How To Train Your Dragon

Water For Elephants

Pretty boring list, but at least it's keeping me occupied! Getting bored and I have nothing better to do. Oh right, I play Sims 3 ~~most of the time~~ once in a while.

But it feels good to just laze around, sleep whenever I want for however long I want. I like it. But I'm gonna get sick of it soon. Need to find something else to do besides re-watching every movie/seeing what moves my eyebrows can do.

Might watch The Notebook in a bit. Heh!

Just chilling to some dubstep now. Didn't know I would enjoy it this much!

Hope you had a good day

Goodbyes suck;

2011-06-25T12:39:00.004+10:00

Lauren just moved out of the hostel.

Said goodbye to her, tried so hard not to cry.

I spend almost all of my time with her, and now she's gone just like that.

I hope she won't forget us.

That's the thing about distance.

You don't know if the person is gonna forget you or miss you.

Love you loads Tatlow,

Hey you.

2011-06-25T00:42:00.004+10:00

You're just the boy for me,

And I want the world to see we've met.

I had looked the other way,

But as it is I will dream of you tonight.

I wish I could secretly read your mind,

So I'll know if you feel the same way too.

I cross my fingers,

Hoping that you do.

I will probably jinx myself,

As I always do but

We'll travel the world,

Explore every corner of the earth.

We'll live life to the fullest,

Downing 27 shots and sleeping under bars.

Well,

It doesn't hurt to dream.

Nothing's gonna change my world;

2011-06-20T17:09:00.003+10:00

Poor girl missed her flight by a minute! But at least she was able to get another flight and could join us for a night out.

Anyways, I watched Across the Universe last night. Starring Evan Rachel Wood, Jim Sturgess and Joe Anderson.

I have to say it's a pretty trippy movie! But I really enjoyed it. It's kinda like a musical, so like the actors burst out into songs and stuff. Okay so this movie is about this poor artist, Jude, who's from Liverpool (YNWA haha) who travels to America to find his dad and bumps into this super rich dude, Max. From then on, Max and Jude become good friends and Jude meets Max's sister, Lucy. I bet you know what's gonna happen next - Jude falls for Lucy. But they are both attached. Then of course something has to happen which makes it possible for them to be together. Anyways, long story short, Lucy takes part in the revolution (post-Vietnam war) and stuff happens that gets Jude thrown out of America (he didn't have a visa) and then he realises that he really loves Lucy and blah blah blah, he goes back to America (this time with a visa) and tadahhh happily ever after.

Well that probably didn't make sense, just google it, I'm sure you'll get a better picture of what the movie is about.

Oh right, have I mentioned they used songs from The Beatles?

I've never really heard any of their songs before this movie, but now I've heard at least 20 of their songs hahahaha. Here's some covers from the movie,

2011-06-13T19:21:00.001+10:00

I just want somebody to love me.

2011-06-13T01:06:00.002+10:00

1.06 am, just finished thermoregulation.

Dead tired! Can't wait for the exams to be over.

Gonna be sleeping for days hehe

Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me

New mottos maybe;

2011-06-12T01:46:00.003+10:00

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return.

Without love, you would have lived for nothing.

If you do not go after what you want, you will never get it.

It is a risk to love. What if it doesn't work out? Ah, but what if it does?

Chem chem chem;

2011-06-07T00:01:00.003+10:00

Chem exam starts in 8 hour 55 mins.

I'm thinking of not sleeping so that I won't oversleep. But that's just stupid.

Damn, wish me luck. I will need it. All the best to those having exams too.

Like my mum always says, just do your best.

Damn;

2011-06-01T15:36:00.002+10:00

Haven't really got down to studying yet. Damn. I'm so screwed. It's not like I didn't try to study. I got my stuff all perfectly laid out in front of me but once I start trying to read, I feel tired straight away. Daaaamn this isn't good.

My life is pretty shit now. Exams are coming up, stress, no money, having such a bad breakout, haven't had a period since December... I think there's something wrong with me. Sometimes I don't even think I'm suppose to exist. Meh. I'm feeling pretty off right now. Gotta study Sandy. Gotta get back to whatever little studying you were doing just now.

I leave you with a performance.

I swear John Mayer is the best live performer ever to walk this planet. His guitar playing skills are out of this world! Definitely have to see him live one day.

maybe this is the calm before the storm;

Don't laugh;

2011-05-30T23:33:00.003+10:00

Have you ever thought of getting a tattoo? I have.

I just don't know what I want. Mum's got the Buddha's eyes on the back of her neck. I want something cool like hers. Something significant, something meaningful. Initially I wanted Liverpool's motto, You'll Never Walk Alone, on my lower back or somewhere around that area. I really really love the idea of having it. Now I'm thinking of getting a bird somewhere on my upper shoulder. I want to be able to fly free like a bird and travel to every continent on earth. Hopefully it doesn't sound too lame.

But I won't be getting one anytime soon. No cash and I don't think I'm ready to endure the pain. Even if I was ready and had enough money, I wouldn't be able to decide on one anyway. Right now, I want both. Heh.

Doesn't make sense;

2011-05-30T18:25:00.002+10:00

Sometimes I don't get why people, girls especially, always do things to make themselves look so shit. Excessive smoking does not make you look cool. Getting stoned every night does not make you more mature. Getting pissed ass drunk all the time isn't all that pretty either.

Are they bored or something?

2011-05-29T22:34:00.002+10:00

Shit. Just found out that I'm dead broke. Like 2-digits-in-my-bank-account broke. I had at least a thousand at the start of the month. Where did all my money go?! And I can't tell mum cause I'll just upset her with my heavy spending and I don't want to burden her. Money is a big enough problem for her already. Argggh need a job fast. But gotta tackle exams first fffffuck.

I'm such a failure.

Like a caged bird;

2011-05-26T10:29:00.003+10:00

Can't wait to move of out this hostel next year.

Everyone seems to be going back home during the winter break. I just can't wait to travel around Tasmania! Hopefully there'll be people up for road trips. Getting excited just thinking about it!

Dissected a toad yesterday. It was pretty cool, but I have serious issues with frogs/toads/lizards. Uggggh gross. Demonstrator didn't know I was scared shit of toads and she brought one right next to my face to show me it's tongue. I was looking down at my book and when I turned there was a freaking toad next to my face. So I screamed and literally jumped out of my seat. I almost died man.

The dissection was fine, but just looking/touching the toad made me feel pretty sick. Just thinking about it now still makes me shudder. I think I'm gonna be traumatised for the rest of my lifeeeee bleh.

Itching to travel

The more you care, the more you have to lose;

2011-05-24T23:29:00.004+10:00

I have to stop myself from thinking. No more "what ifs" cause there's no point thinking of "what ifs". They're "what ifs" because they will never happen.

I need to stop thinking about stupid crap and just focus on my studies. Exams are coming up, and all I've been doing is everything but study. I'm such a failure. I need a study buddy. Anyone?

A few days ago I found out that a friend went to travel around Europe for 5 months last year. FIVE FUCKING MONTHS IN E-U-R-O-P-E. Words cannot describe how jealous I am. I want him to sit down with me, show me photos, and tell me every single thing he saw.

No doctor will ever be able to cure this illness I have. Okay fine, wanderlust is not actually an illness but whatever.

I wish I could just drop everything right now and travel. But I know that would never happen. Not in a few years.

Damn. I wish I was a jumper.

hope

♬ | I Need a Doctor by Dr. Dre ft. Eminem

I'm about to lose my mind.

Old news, but whatever;

2011-05-20T00:55:00.002+10:00

Finally got a hair cut after 8 months!

Anyways, zoology quiz ~~tomorrow~~ today. Haven't studied much and I am thinking of giving up cause it's only worth 3% gahhhhh

Looking forward to ~~tomorrow~~ tonight though! Gonna be Lauren's first big night out legally =)

A shot of broken heart;

2011-05-15T12:28:00.002+10:00

Got drunk last night, puked then cried for 2 hours.

All I could remember was me running.

I ran and ran and ran. Fell so many times, but I still got up and ran again.

Got a few cuts on my hands and legs, tore holes in my stockings.

But other than that I'm all good. No hangover, thank god.

Slowly dying a little inside everyday. I am a bloody fool.

Tearing me silently;

2011-05-14T13:47:00.002+10:00

Numb. That's how I feel now.

Cried myself to sleep last night, woke up feeling worse.

I don't think I've ever dreamt of someone that much in a night before.

And never have I liked a stranger as much as I do now.

I need to get out. Get some fresh air, clear my mind and maybe get a little drunk tonight.

But I have assignments to do. Fuck my life.

Maybe that was a sign, a sign for me to move on?

♬ | Edge Of Desire by John Mayer

Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see.

Okay maybe not;

2011-05-11T00:10:00.003+10:00

Change of plans, maybe I can't stop myself from forgetting.

☮

Stupid zoology prac exam tomorrow. I loooove zoology but words can't express how much I hate invertebrates. They're cool and stuff but man, getting tested about them sucks. Why are there so many phylums and classes?! Ohhhhh it just hurts my head trying to remember them. I mix all the characteristics up and end up giving made-up, imaginary characteristics to the phylums/class. And this is gonna be worth 15%. F-I-F-T-E-E-N percent.

The moment I get the exam paper is gonna be the perfect "fuck my life" moment.

♬ | And The Boys by Angus & Julia Stone

Too caught up in you;

2011-05-10T00:12:00.002+10:00

Falling head over heels for someone who doesn't even think of you for a second.

This happens to me all the time.

"You should talk to him," they say.

But I can't. I can't even breathe properly when he's nearby.

And what should I say anyways?

"Hey, you're really cute. I can't stop thinking about you. Wanna hang out?"

Maybe it's a good idea to stop. It's getting to the point where I can't even think eat sleep or do anything without thinking of him. He's the last thing I think of before I go to sleep and the first thing that pops into my mind when I wake up. Heck he's even starring in my dreams lately.

It must be really stupid, since I don't even talk to him or anything. It's been like this for a month! Ohhhh I'm driving myself crazy.

you're untouchable like a distant diamond sky

I'm such a girl;

2011-05-05T20:59:00.001+10:00

Just saw photos of a friend's wedding. She looks gorgeous and her wedding looks beautiful. And all of a sudden, I realized that I've always had a dream wedding at the back of my mind, but I just never got down to thinking about it. Now I just can't stop thinking of the day that I get married. It doesn't have to be perfect, but then again, who wouldn't want their wedding to be as perfect as it possibly can?

My dream wedding? At the beach... at sunset. ❤

Wineglass Bay;

2011-04-26T00:23:00.005+10:00

Went on a road trip to Wineglass Bay today!

Jon; Michael; Jess; Sandy.

Left at like 9am, and passed through Sorell and Swansea before we got to Freycinet National Park at like noon. Started the hike at 1pm and what a tedious hike it was! But it was all worth it though =)Went to the lookout first before heading down to the bay to chill and have lunch. Saw wild wallabies and they are the cutest!! Saw flying fishes too and also saw seagulls catching fishes hahaha it was a pretty awesome experience! Made it back to the carpark at 5 and drove alllll the way back to Hobart where we had pizza which was so good. Definitely will do a road trip there again, maybe to Bay of Fires next time too =)

Anyways, gonna play badminton at the unigym tomorrow, hopefully I won't be too sore D:

♬ | Angels Cry by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Angels cry when stars collide.

Easter is just another excuse for me to eat more chocolate;

2011-04-22T15:42:00.003+10:00

Just got my tickets confirmed! Going back to Singapore on the 24th of August for 10 days! =)

Going back on such a weird date because my grandad is having a dinner for his 70th birthday and it's a pretty huge event so it's only right that I go back and celebrate it along with alllll my other relatives who are going back to see him.

Can't wait to see my baby sister, and my mum and my friends and eeeeveryone back home!

HAPPY EASTER!

xoxo,

♬ | Untouchable by Taylor Swift

Untouchable burning brighter than the sun,

When you're close I feel like coming undone.

I think I'm losing my head;

2011-04-21T11:57:00.002+10:00

So there's this guy. He's really cute. Never really took notice of him much but now I can't stop looking at him. I swear there's no second when he isn't on my mind. Thing is, we have never talked before, only exchanged a word of "sorry" when I was trying to walk past him during chem lab. That marked the first day I started going all "stalkerish" on him. Oh right, he has caught me staring at him one too many times; in class, during chem lab, on campus, while he was working in Jetty Surf... And all those times I have never smiled at him. Not once. Maybe he thinks I'm some wacko asian stalker.

Right, have I mentioned he surfs? I've always wanted to learn surfing. And he plays football/soccer too! I like guys who play soccer. Hey hey he might even be a Liverpool fan eh?

There's no way of getting him out of my head.

Maybe it's just another infatuation. I don't even know him personally. Who knows? He could be some psychopath deep inside. (who plays football and surfs)

♬ | Untouchable by Taylor Swift

I'm caught up in you.

But you're untouchable like the distant diamond sky.

And when you're close, I feel like coming undone.

Chemistry is a depressing subject;

2011-04-03T23:38:00.002+10:00

Chem mid semester test coming up tomorrow, and here I am, feeling like how my little sister is feeling in that photo.

Had a read through the notes and re-wrote them out but still, I'm lost as fuck. I swear Chemistry is one of the most depressing subject. It's worse than Math and Physics! At least the test isn't til 1 in the afternoon so I have time in the morning to revise again. Oh man, this suckballs

t(-_-t)

Anyways, went to a Singapore-Malaysian restaurant today called Chatterbox down at pretty North Hobart. Having local food makes me happy, even chocolate can't beat it. Had ice cream at Cold Rock after and it was pretty ridiculous cause it was freezing cold. But whatever, nothing comes in between me and my mint chocolate chip ice cream.

❄

Aights, gonna have one last read through the many pages of notes before I head to bed.

Okay maybe not heh 8)

XOXO

♬ | The Devil's Tears by Angus & Julia Stone

I'll drink the Devil's tears, drink from his soul but I'll never give up you.

Boo;

2011-04-01T16:32:00.002+11:00

You know how I said I scratched my nose stud out the other day? Well today I got a new one weee~

I used the needle this time! Got it done at Tassie Ink and it was heaps cheaper. It would cost $50 to get it done via needle at Bodyworx but it was only $35 at Tassie Ink. Like they say, "A good tattoo doesn't have to be expensive but a cheap tattoo isn't good either."

Okay maybe this wasn't the exact words but I can't remember the actual thing but you get the point hehehe!

I'm just so happy! I swear I'm not gonna touch my nose lest the stud falls out again.

xoxo

♬ | Never Let Me Down Again by Depeche Mode

Life can be a bitch sometimes;

2011-03-30T23:12:00.003+11:00

I accidentally scratched my nose stud out today. Hopefully I can get it re-pierced =(

When I couldn't put my stud back in I actually sat on the bed and cried like a baby for 5 mins. I was that upset. That was like at 6.50am, when I was getting ready to leave to catch my 8am lecture. So I didn't have time to deal with it. Arrrrgh suckballs.

School really sucks by the way. I am so so sooooo behind.

If not for the cute guys, I think I wouldn't even be motivated to go to school haha!

Yea, I'm a perv like that ;)

♬ | For The First Time by The Script

Oh these times are hard;

Plucking your eyebrow hurts more;

2011-03-29T00:16:00.004+11:00

Got my nose pierced with Audrey two days ago!

Used a gun, so it was pretty painless. It's kinda sore now though. My mum said I should keep turning it to prevent bacteria build up and shit and so I did. Wtf it hurts like a bitch! Let's hope I won't get an infection *crossing my fingers*

✎

School's pretty shit now. I haven't exactly started studying yet, and I really need to start revision since the mid semester tests are coming up. And I have no idea when they are hahahah fail.

Night!

♬ | Science And Faith by The Script

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope.

ps. I did Earth Hour. Did you?

| Woosh;

2011-03-16T23:43:00.003+11:00

On the first day of orientation, I took my chances and decided to join the rock climbing club (what a joke right?! I know). I have been too busy to head down to any sessions but I'm finally gonna (hopefully) head down tomorrow.Today, they sent me an email, informing me that the climbing club will be heading out to Tasman Peninsula to climb real rocks this Saturday. I was curious so I looked at the list of people they sent the email out to. That's when I found his name. HIS NAME. Oh my god, I swear I almost died on the spot.

What if he sees me tomorrow and he'll be like, "Eeeww who's that fat girl trying to climb?!" Oh my, it's gonna be so embarrassing! What if I'm like the worst climber there (duh I'm so totally gonna be the worst since I'm fat and I can't climb) and he'll be laughing at me? OH MY GOD HOW?! I really wanna go but arghhhh so frustrating. Maybe he won't even be there anyways. But still! Gosh I wish I was slim and fit.

*left-to-right: Lauren, Claira, Bay*

XOXO,

paranoid S.

♬| Tiesto's Club Life Podcast 206

ps. what if he doesn't like asians?! kill me.

| Cute guys who can sing;

2011-03-12T00:57:00.003+11:00

The Script Mashup (For The First Time/The Man Who Can't Be Moved) by Before You Exit.

I am currently very addicted to this song and I can't stop listening to it. It even plays in my dreams. That's how awesome it is.

Don't let their cute faces fool you! They are a talented bunch. Take some time and listen to it if you could! =)

xoxo,

♬ | The Script Mashup by Before You Exit.

Oh these times are hard, yeah they're making us crazy.

| Cute guys all over the world;

2011-02-28T23:14:00.002+11:00

It sucks when the cute/hot/good looking guys:

1. are attached
2. know that they are good looking so they are a big flirt
3. know that they are good looking so they are really ego and shit
4. are really really reaaaally vain
5. dislike you
6. doesn't know that you exist
7. hangs out with slutty girls that put on too much make up
8. are really racist and rude and swears too much
9. are antisocial
10. not attached but they like some other person

=\

xoxo,
S.

2011-02-23T18:47:00.002+11:00

Attraction
Sorrow
Disbelief
Happiness
Loneliness
Jealousy
Depression

suicidal.

| Hobart;

2011-02-23T15:14:00.002+11:00

missing each and every one of you very much ❤

Yo.

It's almost been a week since I arrived here in Hobart, Tasmania! =)
So far so good. Weather's a bit crazy though. We got snow on the mountain top just a few days ago. And that's wrong cause you are not suppose to get snow in summer!

The hostel is awesome! and I made loads of friends here! Uni is not bad but I only made two friends. HAHA. The university is spread out over a hill. So to get from a school to another is like trekking up Mount Everest rofl nevermind, it's good exercise wooo!

Pretty rainbow which looked so much more awesome irl!

xoxo,
S.

♬| No Surprise by Daughtry

2011-02-16T09:01:00.001+11:00

Everyone's waving but I'm only focused on you.

| I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing;

2011-02-15T18:12:00.003+11:00

☹

I'm all packed and ready to go.

Can't decide whether to be happy or depressed.

Happy and excited that I'm going to start a new semester in a UNIVERSITY.

I'm gonna be a university student.

Ha ha I'm so excited!

Then again, I'm sad cause I'm leaving.

My mum, baby Sasha, my cousins, my friends.

They won't be there when I'm looking for them anymore.

I'm gonna be so lonely.

I don't know what to expect there.

It's a different state, a new place.

What if I don't fit in?

What if I can't make any friends?

What if I'm a social outcast?

Sob =(

*Forever alone? Maybe*

See you on the other side (if I can get hold of internet first)

♬| Breakeven by The Script

I'm fallin' to pieces.

| Happy V Day!

2011-02-15T03:06:00.003+11:00

Had dinner with my cousins and cai today at my uncle's coffeeshop! Sitting at the table beside us was a group of women. So I was like "they're having a singles party hahahah!" Then I realised that I was kinda having a "singles dinner" with my cousins and cai too hahahaha okay yea end of story.

☁

Met up with Gwen, Gen, Merilyn, Bert, Dean, Bryan and Jun Wei yesterday for d-lunch at Sushi Tei (group photo in previous post) and then after that I met my primary school friends - Clara, Jared and Nick for dinner. Hahaha they're still so funny and I'm so happy that even though we are in different secondary schools and stuff we still meet up and still have fun together =D

If I'm not making sense it's okay hahahah I don't think I make much sense either wooohooo~

Jared insisting that he looks bad in near shots so he decided to stand far away and look all cool.

suppose to be a bunny pose but idk what nick is doing rofl.

❤

xoxo,

♬| Spanish Sahara by Foals
I'm the ghost at the back of your head.

| Deep inside, there's a rush;

2011-02-14T03:17:00.004+11:00

Happy Valentine's Day! (more like Forever Alone Day)

*it's just puppy love, nothing more. it's just puppy love, nothing more. it's just pup-... argh*

I'm leaving in two days. Gonna miss Singapore a lot! My friends, cousins, mum, Sasha, every one!

And I just went to tighten my braces two days ago and now my teeth is aching like hell. Can't bite, can't chew, can't even talk/laugh without feeling any pain. It hurts to even just do anything with my mouth cause the thing is cutting the inside of my lip. Should have gotten wax when the nurse asked me argh fml max.

xoxo,

♬ | A Tear In The Open by Tiësto.

| Aren't you tired? You've been running through my mind the whole day;

2011-02-07T02:09:00.003+11:00

Isn't that cute? I wanted to post a gif but I don't know how to so.. yea.

*chik*

I don't like how my heart works. At any point in time, I must have a guy that I have a crush on. I cannot remember a time when I was not crushing on any guy. This is bad because I can't control it and it makes me feel totally horrible because the "targets" are usually my friends and it really sucks. I think the only time where I will not have a crush on anyone is when I am locked in a room of horrible, terrible smelling, mean, revolting guys.

Then again, why would I be stuck in a room with nasty people anyways?

*maybe I'm just unboyfriendable*

I can see it now,
Liverpool 17 Chelsea 0.

Own goals by Torres!

Hahaha saw this on tumblr. Yea, I wish! Hopefully we will win the match. Not to prove anything to Torres, but to prove to everyone else that we can win even though Torres left us =)

*YNWA*

Some people are just bastards. Just because their club is doing well, they think they can go around making fun of players' names from other clubs. Oh well, without these people, watching football wouldn't be as fun as it is right? ;)

XOXO,

♬ | Buddy Holly by Weezer

I don't care bout that.

Really short and sweet;

2011-02-06T04:55:00.005+11:00

Happy Lunar New Year to one and all!

Finally I'm home for Chinese New Year this time round! =)

新年快乐！祝你们身体健康，学业进步，岁岁平安，天天快乐！

Haha pardon my chinese, it's a bit cmi heheheheee.

So this is what happened during the past few weeks:

1. Laneway Festival 29th Jan 2011 @ Fort Canning Park

It was gooood! Especially like Holy Fuck and Foals =)

2. Sasha's 10 days old! 24th Jan 2011.

Little Sasha Angel Weber is doing good! But she seems to be a nocturnal baby.

3. Vivian's surprise birthday party 4th Feb 2011 @ Simei

The plan was to celebrate her birthday at 18 Chefs but it was closed, so we had to make do with Long John Silvers. Anyways it was a success so yeaaaa =D

4. Bertrand's place 4th Feb 2011 @ Kembangan

Went to bai nian at Bert's place and spent the whole day there playing, watching shows, laughing and nua-ing, the usual thing that we do cause we are slackers like that =D

5. Torres left Liverpool for Chelsea 31st Jan 2011 @ Merseyside

If I said I wasn't angry, I would be a liar. I would be one too if I said I didn't care. Why not Barcelona or Real Madrid?! Why a rival team? Chelsea-Liverpool matches will never be the same anymore.

I still love Torres but just not in the same way anymore. Now, whenever I see photos of him, I have to fight back tears and look at the player, not the club he is playing for. I'm just happy that he finally got what he wanted - to leave LFC.

Sorry Torres, you gotta walk alone on this journey.

But I doubt you care anyways.

♁

As always, photos are up on Facebook cause I am too lazy to post them here and this blog is basically dead anyways. I think this blog serves more as a place for me to store my memories in case I forget them in future rather than for people to read about my life because Facebook basically tells it all hahaha oh well it's 2am anyways maybe that's why I'm in no mood to write at all.

XOXO,

♬ | A Farewell To A Friendship by A Change Of Pace

Nothing's alright and nothing's okay.

| A beauty is born;

2011-01-21T00:27:00.002+11:00

Introducing my baby sister, Sasha! =)

She's the cutest little thing on earth when she has her daily dose of hiccups! And she has 1000 facial expressions 8)

XOXO, sands.

| UTAS;

2011-01-05T03:00:00.004+11:00

Today, I got news that I am accepted by the University of Tasmania.

Wait for it, wait for it...

I got a 25% scholarship.

FUCKING ECSTATIC! =DDD

But I haven't accepted the offer yet, my mum wants to see if other universities have better offers hhahaha =)

✭

My 2011 so far has been...busy. Aighs too lazy and tired to talk about it today. I'll leave it to another day! Have to wake up at 6.30am tomorrow so I better sleep now shitttttt since when did time pass so fast it's already midnight D:

❤

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

| Blend it like a petal;

2010-12-30T03:02:00.004+11:00

Yo.

Have I mentioned my mum got me 6 personal make-up sessions for Christmas?

Yea, so anyways, I'm learning how to apply make up right now! Had my third lesson today =) And on the first lesson, I learnt how to pluck my eyebrow and it freakiiiing hurts!

Anyways, my make up artist/teacher insisted that I take before/after photos and I didn't bring my camera so we had to make do with my lousy BlackBerry camera =\

Before, my face with nothing on.

It's oily, shiny, has uneven colour and all that shit.

Yes, it's horrible, I know. Blehhhhh.

After foundation and concealor.

It's smoother, less obvious blemishes/dark circles and it's not as shiny anymore!

The finished look, complete with blush, eyebrow pencil, a little eye shadow/pencil liner and mascara.

Too bad I look like an idiot here HAHA whatever spastic is cool X)

I really, really, REAAAALLY love the eyebrows. They are definitely worth the pain!

❄

And my mum's boyfriend gave me $150 to get myself a watch, and my mum showed me a watch which I fell in love with at first sight (she was deciding whether to get me the watch or the make up thingy).

So I got this =)

I really like it! It's like not too sporty and not too classy at the same time! But it's not that white, it's actually off white so yea! =D

♪

Anyways, I am lacking the Christmas and New Year's mood! I think it's because I have more exciting stuff to look forward to! Like getting into uni next year.... 8)

Hope you had an awesome day!

♬| Where'd You Go? by Fort Minor

Your voice always helps me to not feel so alone.

| I can still hear his voice;

2010-12-28T10:40:00.004+11:00

It's 7.40am on a Tuesday morning. I just woke up crying from the sweetest dream I've ever had. But it ended in such a horrible way!

We were walking down a hallway, all 4 of us. There was a couple, another guy - let's call him X - and me. And just so you know, I have a small crush on X. So anyways, we were suppose to go for choir practice but we still had 20 minutes to spare so we decided to watch TK choir's practice (we already graduated from TK).

So we walked into this huge music room where TK choir was having their practice. X and I walked all the way to the centre of the room (I don't know why, dreams are weird) whereas the couple stayed near the door at the side of the room. I was so happy that I was with X and let's cut things short and say that I had a great time.

We were suddenly in a food court. Not a busy one, but there's enough people. We were chatting ( I don't remember eating) and suddenly I remembered that I had my set my BlackBerry alarm to go off at the time choir practice was suppose to start. And my BlackBerry was in the choir room. So I started freaking out and saying that hopefully nobody heard it, or maybe they won't find it annoying when the alarm goes off blah blah blah. In the end, I just hoped that my battery died and so the alarm won't ring (in real life, my BlackBerry alarm is set at 10am and the battery bar is empty and red).

By the time we finished chatting, it was 40 minutes passed time and I think we decided not to go for practice anymore. Then the couple went off somewhere, leaving me with X. By this time, I was already holding his hands and my head was leaning onto his shoulder. He was stroking my hair too! It felt good.

And then he had to talk and spoil the moment.

X: Do you know about any girls?
Sandy: What do you mean?
(X just looks at me)
S: Oh you mean girls that you like?
X: Yea.
S: I've of a few heard a few. (looks down)
(Silence)
X: There's this girl...called Qianwei. A healthy, happy girl. I'm living with her now.
S: .....Oh.
X: So why do you like me? I mean if you know then why do you still like me? Remember the window thing? Why?

That's when I started crying and woke up. My pillow is still damp =(

I can still hear his voice, see his eyes gazing back into mine and feel myself leaning into him.

This is by far, the worst dream ever. But it's okay. I've resigned to the fact that X and I will never, ever ever EVER be together. So this dream just proves my point even more.

Gonna try to go back to sleep

ps. If any of you reading is called Qianwei, I mean no offence but I don't know what kind of a name is Qianwei. And about the healthy thing, I don't know where it came from but my subconscious was probs trying to insult me because I'm fat and unhealthy. And lastly, I'm not sure about the "window thing" too. I was probs stalking X and saw him with the Qianwei girl or something. I seriously don't know. Dreams are weird and cool like that.

| Fingerworks;

2010-12-24T22:22:00.004+11:00

Event: First day of work!

Date: 24th December 2010

Venue: Fingerworks @ Circular Road, Boat Quay.

Worked from 10 to 6 today! HEHEHEH! The owner liked me and I liked working there too so I'm sure I'll be back to help her again soon! So basically, I was The Runner. I fill the tubs and the finger bowls, and wash them after. I also serve the customers tea and biscuits and do some admin stuff. I don't get paid a lot but I don't mind! I don't have to stand all day, I can sit. I can grab food and drinks anytime and I get to learn how to do manicures/pedicures! And the best thing is that I don't sweat. It's air conditioned so yeaaaaa =DDD

AND I got a free express manicure/pedicure today! HEHEHEHE =D

You can't see cause it's quite dark but I'm on the lower bunk of a double decker bed so yea it's dark and I'm lazy to move EEHEEHEE! Anyways, it's like a French mani, with Navy and then golden glitter at the ends =D

And it has only been about 2 hours after I got it painted on but I already destroyed 2 of it ARGH I SUCK.

❄

Anywhooo, gonna go to mum's friend's place to decorate the Christmas tree so that it'll be all nice and pretty for tomorrow! And then head down to Orchard Road to meet my cousins and friends for the countdown!

And then maybe, just MAYBE, head to Zouk with my mum's boyfriend.

Let's hope I can tahan til the end.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

| Nostalgia;

2010-12-24T03:16:00.002+11:00

Hello. It's almost Christmas already! Time flies so bloody fast.

To sum up my 2010 life, it has been quite boring and lonely. So yea, hopefully 2011 will be different (for the better of course!).

Anyways, I have been really preoccupied ever since I came back from Melbourne. I haven't spent one day where I'm at home alone in my room, just chilling out. I've been to my grandma's place to look after her (watching korean dramas there lol), out with friends til 11pm (mostly to watch caroling), spending time with my mum (not at home though) and yea. Even though I get more than 8 hours of sleep, I still feel so fatigue at times. Argh maybe I'm getting old hahahahaha =)

Crumbs + Apple = Apple Crumble hurhur.

Her bag is damn cute 8)

❤

Had a crazy time today with Gwen, Gen and Cai! Ran from Marina link (??) to Ritz and then chiong-ed to Raffles Hotel but it was all for nothing. We should have just stayed at Ritz. Because the thing is, we were suppose to go to Ritz to watch Bryan Halim conduct, then chiong all the way to Raffles to hear Dean solo. BUT, somehow things happen so Dean didn't get to solo. AND, Bryan solo-ed at Ritz. So point is, we should have just stayed at Ritz so we could hear Bryan and Chengwei solo.

But yea, no use crying over spilled milk. SHIT HAPPENS. Okay next.

☀

I'll be working (HAH!) tomorrow. Just for a day. The place where my mum does her nails needs a helper, so I'm just gonna be there and basically work as a maid. I'll serve drinks to the customers, and help them remove/put on their shoes and stuff like that. Then the first week of Jan I'll be working as a receptionist for a few days at my mum's friend's yoga studio =)

☁

I can't describe how I'm feeling now. It's like those "I don't feel like doing anything but I have so much to do" kinda feeling. I have so many things to do! Gotta go see my dentist (gg.com) and also apply to unis.

I hate that I'm such a procrastinator. My future husband has to NOT be a procrastinator so he can help me change my procrastinating ways hahahaha. Nah I don't think I will ever change out of these spots ah I'm getting so sleepy I don't even know what I'm talking about.

Goodnight & sweet dreams,

♬| Stranger by Secondhand Serenade

Turn around & fix your eye in my direction, so there is a connection.

| Sobs;

2010-12-22T02:54:00.005+11:00

Hello.

Watched Tangled today with YinShuang, and it was really good.

I wish I looked like Rapunzel.

Or at least be as beautiful as her.

Then we walked and walked and walked to Ritz Carlton, found out that VJchoir was only caroling at 7pm (we were there at 6.30), so we decided to walk and walk and walk all the way to Raffles Hotel to watch the other group sing.

Got Red Mango on the way there, and the mango flavoured yoghurt was awesome.

Right.....and then we watched the caroling, monodealed and then went for dins at Burger King.

It was kinda late so we couldn't talk much or play so we headed home.

So yeauppppp.

Oh right, I also went ice skating with Jeslyn, Astrid, Sharmane, Estee and YinShuang this morning.

It was awesomefun =)

✈

I tend to sing more when I'm feeling kinda sad.

I sang a lot today.

❀

I feel like a stalker sometimes.

But what can I do?

It's not like I can have a talk with the person face to face.

He's just nice to look at, that is all.

Oh right, and he has a nice voice too.

But...yea.

❄

These few days have been so busy. I have to spend time with my sick grandmother at her Ang Mo Kio home, and then spend time with friends, it's just so...tiring. Sigh, I just wish I could stop time now so I can sleep.

XOXO,

♬| Grenade by Bruno Mars

Gave you all I had & you tossed it in the trash.

| Where's my Romeo?!

2010-12-21T02:33:00.003+11:00

Romeo,

Save me, I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you but you never come.

Romeo, oh Romeo, where art thou?

♬| Love Story by Taylor Swift

You'll be the prince & I'll be the princess.

| self-hate;

2010-12-20T02:46:00.002+11:00

Coming down with a serious case of self-hate now. Suckballs.

I can't sing

I can't dance

I can't draw

I can't cook

I can't fucking do anything

I'm just a fat ugly girl who is useless at everything

Sometimes I don't even know why I even exist in the first place.

♬| For The First Time by The Script

Oh, these times are hard. Yeah, they're making ME crazy.

| 10th ZoukOut!

2010-12-16T02:45:00.002+11:00

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY ZOUKOUT! (though it is a belated one)

So yeaups, we got there about 1am. Took us about 2 hours to actually get IN. The traffic and the long queue! So yea, I managed to get in and I didn't have to show my ID or anything =) Maybe the fact that I was with an ang moh and that my mum made me wear a bandana helped me look the age too! HAHAHA okay nuff talking, here's some of the photos I took, but most of them are up on facebook so yeaup! =)

Mummy!

Laidback Luke. I like the jelly thing!

Laser lights hehe.

At one point everyone was looking at the fireworks and not the DJ playing and he had to grab the mic to get our attention back. It was epic!

TIESTO!

I don't know if this picture is clear here but you can see Tiesto against the dark background it's quite nice =D

argh stupid hand! If only I was taller.

David Guetta. See the two bright spots? They're like robots or something it was quite cool but I don't really like his songs so I went to the back of the crowd. So it's kinda far (in the camera) to see the stage clearly =\

The music was great, the crowd not so. Some people were there to act cool only! Like they would stand in the crowd and not move/dance! It was kinda annoying after a while. It is after all, a DANCE music festival. I mean it's dance music, you're suppose to dance or move at least! Not stand there and just give a black face!

Definitely gonna drag my friends to ZoukOut 2011 next year, when we're all finally fucking LEGAL! ;)

Aights, last but not least, I leave you with my favourite shot of the day!

XOXO,sands.

♬| Traffic by Tiësto

| VCE results!

2010-12-15T02:34:00.004+11:00

Was gonna post photos from ZoukOut but the first time I uploaded the photos to Photobucket, they were ginormous so I had to re-upload everything again. Thankfully it's only 20 photos but still, they are huge (total of 42mb or something!). So gonna post them tomorrow. Photos are up on facebook already anyways =) and they are nothing much. I didn't go with friends so I didn't take much pictures if you get what I mean. The pictures are just of the performance and the crowd =)

Oh right, and I got back my results for my exams yesterday!

So my enter score is 89.55 I don't know how good that is, but I'm gonna safely say that that is pretty safe since the highest possible score to get is 99.95! =)

(I just sneezed like 4 times in a row and this doesn't happen. I think I'm falling sick.)

Anyways, yeaups I guess it's good then! Gonna apply for uni soon and hope I can get a scholarship and ease some burden from my mum who is working really hard to support me. Oh yes, have I mentioned my mum is pregnant? =))))

I'M GONNA BE A BIG SISTER SOON! (in a month's time!)
*crossing my fingers and hoping it's a boy*

Seeya tomorrow!

XOXO, sands.

Failure

2010-12-10T02:37:00.002+11:00

It seems like everything I do

I do it wrong

You can't do this

You have to do that

You didn't do this

You must not do it like that

Nothing I do is ever right

I feel like such a failure in life

It's better to not do anything at all I guess

Just bow and nod to whatever they tell me to do

Then again I won't be spared

Because no matter what I'm still a failure

Both inside and out.

| 95% of the guys I like are celebs who don't even know I exist;

2010-12-07T08:14:00.003+11:00

Voyage of the Dawn Treader was good! Can't believe it's the end! And, Ben Barnes aka Prince/King Caspian is so gorgeous with his long hair!

*sighs*

On a side note, I realised that I'm really into guys who have brown hair and brown eyes.

Francisco Lachowski

Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Heath Ledger

Christian Bale

Johnny Depp

Brandon Routh

Marc Marquez

Ben Barnes

The other brown hair and brown eyed people out there...

HEEHEE 8)

Anyways, I'M FLYING BACK TO SINGAPORE TODAY! heheh so excited! Woke up at 6am today because I have been waking up at this time the past few days, and now I can't go back to sleep because I'm just buzzing with excitement! But it does get frustrating after a while of tossing and turning though, because I only slept 6 hours and SIX HOURS ISN'T ENOUGH!!! And I don't want to get sleepy on the plane because, what if they show good movies! I can't watch them if I get sleepy!
Honestly, I'm just really excited about the plane ride! hehehe I love to take airplanes!

And I leave you with a song I'm currently very, VERY addicted to =)

For The First Time by The Script

Sadly, the video can't be embedded so if you wanna listen to it, click on the link! I hope the link works hahaha! And if you do watch it, I really like the part from 3:49 onwards hahaha though it barely lasts for a minute!

XOXO, sands.

♬ | For The First Time by The Script

We're smiling but we're close to tears.

| Not every movie has to be in 3D;

2010-12-04T15:44:00.003+11:00

What a hot and humid day today! Guess that prepares me for Singapore. The other time I went back unprepared and I couldn't take the heat, nor the humidity. I barely lasted through the first night cause I couldn't breathe!

Anyways, went to the city today to buy some souveniors. Lazy to think of what to buy so I just bought a bunch of Australia keychains. They're cute though! And then went to David Jones to help get some stuff for my mum. I'm just glad to be home, in the shade, in front of the fan and out of the scorching sun!

A little farewell dinner later and then CHRONICLES OF NARNIA after! hehehe

excited! And I haven't watched Harry Potter yet! Promised to watch it with my mum when I go back to Singapore, so a few more days! hehehe!

Hope you had a great day!

XOXO, sands.

| I wish I could help.

2010-12-02T19:01:00.003+11:00

Was walking home today and stopped short when I saw a barely alive bird lying on the road. It was lying on its back, feet up in the air, and it was kinda wet (it rained). The bird was breathing rapidly and I could see some pinkish-white stuff jutting out from its chest. I've never seen a close up of a bird, so I don't know how it is suppose to look like. The stuff that was jutting out could have been normal, or it could mean something was terribly wrong.

It was lying on the road so I thought it would be safer for it if I placed it on the soil. So that's what I tried to do. I was gonna pick it up with my hands, but decided not in the end. Using two pieces of bark that I found, I place one on either side of the bird and lifted.

Then I freaked out, slipped a little and dropped the bird.

I fucking dropped it. It landed with a nasty sound and it stared at me, chirping non stop. By that time I was freakin out like shit, I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to pick it up and risk dropping it again. But thankfully, the bird had landed on the side of the curb, so it was safe from cars. I tried moving it again, trying to get it to stand, but it couldn't. So I took a leaf and placed it over the bird and left.

I wish I could help the poor little bird instead of leaving it there to die.

XOXO, sands.

too bad I didn't learn first aid for animals.

| Be, be, be, be, bebebbbbbbbeee

2010-11-29T12:56:00.005+11:00

Just sold my bed away, so I'm currently bedless now. Gotta sleep on the floor on my comforter! Good thing it's carpeted and my comforter is comfy =D

anyways, went to my uncle's friend's place for BBQ yesterday! Gonna miss the bbq food when I go back to Singapore! I think it's the only thing of Melbourne I will miss. Besides the weather and the shops =D Got to watch 十月围城 (Bodyguards and Assassins) and 江山美人 (An Empress and Her Warriors). It was my second time watching B&A and I still can't stop tearing up at the end T.T the second movie was meh. It was more like a love story of some sort.

Came home and managed to watch Pan's Labyrinth. It was really good and I got all mindfucked at the ending because I can't figure out if the the whole fantasy thingy was the girl's imagination or if it was real. But according to the director, it was real, so I'm just gonna say it was real.

Definitely gonna watch this again.

And I got really freaked out when I saw this:

So yea, do catch Pan's Labyrinth if you haven't. It's quite sadistic though, and a tad bit gory. It has got to do with a sadistic man, a group of rebels, an 11-year-old girl, a faun and a pregnant mother. Haha sounds weird but trust me, it's a movie worth watching!

XOXO, sands.

♬ | Be vs. Satisfaction by Laidback Luke & Steve Angello vs. Benny Bennasi

Swedish House Mafia bootleg

| Sigh, I love this guy but he will never be mine.

2010-11-27T17:59:00.003+11:00

He likes to surf.

He likes to scuba dive.

He likes soccer/football.

He's funny.

And cute.

But he'll never be mine.

If I could spend a day with him, I'll hug him all day and talk about nonsensical things. And maybe I'll take loads of photos with him too.

You are too perfect to be real!

THIS.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz asdfghjkjklsjdlakdkbasb

XOXO,

I ❤ Francisco Lachowski.

♬ | Beautiful Lie by 30STM

It's a beautiful lie, it's the perfect denial.

| I'm a procrastinator, I don't cope well with time management.

2010-11-26T21:02:00.005+11:00

WAASSSSSSAAAA-BI!

Been doing more packing today. My luggage is almost full now, and I still have some more stuff left to pack. I hope it doesn't exceed the baggage weight limit =(

I'm just feeling so bleh right now. I wish time could stop now, so I could just get all my stuff done. Need to apply to unis, something which I am not very good at. Need to sell away all my textbooks, again, something I suck at. And then there's all the packing to do...

The thing that is stressing me out right now are the deadlines for applications. I don't think I can meet all of them. ARGGGGGH I need help.

Right, I played with my eyeliner today and being the narcissist that I am, I also spent some QT with Photobooth. I'm still deciding if I should start wearing eyeliner out. I never wear much makeup when I go out, maybe it's time for a change!

Maybe? mm maybe I should get eyeliner that doesn't smugde first.

XOXO, sands.

I feel like I'm in limbo, again.

♬ | Elements of Life by Tiësto

can't stop listening, haha!

Because I am who I am

2010-11-26T00:31:00.003+11:00

You have a bigger body,

So you hate shopping for clothes

For clothes you like

They never fit.

They are too long

Because you're short,

They are too tight

Because you're plump.

Why can't I be slim like all the girls?

You ask yourself.

Why can't I be as pretty as them, too?

You ask again.

Why am I so different?

You cry.

| Why is the legal age 18? Is it because it's a nice number?

2010-11-25T21:00:00.005+11:00

My mum just told me she has my ticket for an event right in front of her now and I'm really excited and shit! But thing is, I am a year under the legal age. So I'm really worried that I can't get in, cause it's a really big event and I'm sure they'll ask for photo ID right?

S: You've been there before right? Do they check ID?
M: Been there 5 times or so. They check..sometimes.
S: Sometimes?
M: Can't remember
S: mm
M: I'm usually drunk by the time I walk in :D :D
S: HAHAHHAA

So yeaup, now I'm freakin out! WHAT IF I CAN'T GET IN =( I really wanna get in!

Wanna know why?! Tiesto is gonna be playing!

Aw man I really hope they won't check! If they won't let me in I'll probs be on the ground screamin, "I swear I'm a good girl! I don't get drunk and I don't do drugs! Heck I don't even smoke! I'm just there to hear Tiesto. COME ON LET ME IN!"

But then again, I'll probs be arrested by the police or something. PLAN FAIL.

Plan B? hmmmm, I don't know. I don't even have a fake ID! And I've been to Thailand at least 10 times.

I've walked into a few clubs here and there, even went into a gay club once (it was awesome) and walked past a few bouncers, and none of them actually asked for an ID.

Oh right, there was once I was almost checked but then my mum showed up and distracted him and her friend just pulled me in.

But see, nothing happened! I didn't get drunk, I didn't do drugs, I didn't smoke and I'm still happily a virgin and doing well in school. I didn't do anything except drink and dance. Come on, that must mean something. So many times I could have gone astray, but yet here I am still a fucking good girl.

Most people my age are probably smoking, getting drunk, and getting laid on a daily basis.

Oh right, have I mentioned how much I love my new background?

Lachowski❤

XOXO, sands.

COME ON LET ME IN!

♬ | Stay Awake (acoustic) by ATL

So before you ask which way to go, remember where you've been.

2010-11-25T16:08:00.004+11:00

Just got this from Body Shop! I love this scent. Too bad they discontinued the dewberry perfume oil =(

hmm yea that's about it. Maybe I'll update later tonight!

XOXO, vanilla-smelling-sands.

♬ | Heartbeat by Enrique Iglesias ft. Nicole Scherzinger

You got me dreaming like a fool, that I could steal your heart away.

Belief

2010-11-24T19:45:00.003+11:00

Some believe in love at first sight,

while some believe in fate.

Others believe in religion,

I believe in chocolate.

Euphoria

2010-11-24T02:28:00.003+11:00

I just found out I am going to watch Tiësto live!

XOXO, a happy mound of sandy.

♬ | Elements of Life by Tiësto

fuckawesome beats!

2010-11-23T20:03:00.002+11:00

Good morning/afternoon/night!

Spent about 4 hours clearing my study table today. I never realised the amount of paper we use for school until I looked at my pile of "To Be Recycled" papers. I must say, it is A LOT of papers.

And I'm getting ready to pack everything back to Singapore! SO EXCITED TO GO BACK! =) I miss eating roti prata, carrot cake, hokkien mee, chili crab, mee goreng, chicken rice, duck rice, bbq stingray, satay, EVERYTHING! *stomach growls*

Oh yea, it was so hot today! Felt like I was in Singapore, sans the humidity. The weather here is really weird, like one day it could be low 3o℃ and the next day it would be like 19℃. Can't leave the house without checking the weather forecast!

Mm, and I dreamt of Francisco Lachowski last night! I woke up and then went back to sleep, so I can't remember what the dream was about.

But it must have been a good one because I woke up smiling! :3

xoxo, sands.

♬ | At The Beginning by Richard Max & Donna Lewis

Love is a river I wanna keep flowing.

Forever etched

2010-11-23T19:56:00.006+11:00

Memories that cut like a blade

Though without success,

You try to forget.

I yearn

2010-11-22T22:54:00.001+11:00

Hands,

Hard and rough

Envelope you.

They are nothing but delusions,

Haunting and ever so present.

Which Brazilian doesn't like football?

2010-11-22T17:42:00.002+11:00

Not this Brazilian ;)

Sigh, if only I can meet him in person. I would just hug him all day long if he'd let me.

Desolation

2010-11-22T00:01:00.002+11:00

Out in the morning

Your smile fills your face.

But when night befalls

You are alone with nothing.

2010-11-04T14:29:00.000+11:00

Disappointed. Distraught. Pissed. Sad. Disenchanted.

I hate myself.

| Stranded;

2010-10-22T23:43:00.002+11:00

Exams are in 5 days.

I'm so stressed but I'm not even studying. I don't understand this. I'm motivated to study, but when I get down to studying, I just can't focus. What's this? I can't achieve good results like this. But still, every time I open my book, my mind just shuts down and stops thinking.

This isn't good. It really isn't good at all.

xoxo, sandy.

Who am I kidding?

2010-09-06T15:04:00.005+10:00

One day, I boarded the 10.57am train as usual. I found a vacant seat beside the window and sat down. The guy in the seat in front was wearing an orange hoodie. I loved him for bringing some colour into this dull world.

So all the way to my station, I got to admire his back view. He had brownish black hair and had his earphones on. He wasn't really looking out the window, just staring into the blank space in front of him. He took out his iPhone and changed songs. Maybe it was an iTouch. I don't know. I'm a technology idiot.

Then I got to my station, and surprise surprise, he alighted at the same station as I did. Turns out we went to the same tafe. I managed to catch a glimpse of his face then, and I think my heart fluttered a bit. But I forget things easily, so his face didn't stay in my memory for long. Dammit. We then walked in different directions and I briskly walked to Math class which started at 11am.

Lunch time came and I headed to the library to finish some English work. I randomly walked around the computer area and finally found one available for use. I logged in and inserted my thumb drive. As I was waiting for it to load, my eyes strayed away from the screen to the hand opposite, which was moving and clicking on the mouse. My eyes followed up the hand, and that's when I saw some orange. Haha, this is awesome. The guy with the orange hoodie was using the computer opposite me.

But I still couldn't see his face. Maybe I could move my whole body to the left just to catch a glimpse of his face. No, too obvious. I had to just settle by just looking at his hand.

An hour passed as quickly as a minute. Even as I stood up to leave, I didn't have the courage to look up at the guy with the orange hoodie. I quickly packed my stuff and scurried off to Physics class.

The next day, my Biology class was pushed back an hour, so I took the 9.50 something AM train. As the train slowed to a stop, I looked into a window and guess who I saw? Yes, that same guy again. I had actually forgotten about him. This time, he wasn't wearing an orange hoodie. He was wearing, something else. Something black. I can't remember. I think we actually held eye contact for a split second. Just a small teeny weeny second. But that didn't stop me from actually grinning inwardly for the whole trip.

When we reached our station, he alighted a door down from me. I was closer to the exit so when I alighted, he would be facing my direction. I could then take a glimpse right? Wrong. I was still some coward and kept my head down as I walked to the exit. From the corner of my eye, I saw him walking towards me. THEN, I felt someone walking past me. Someone walking waaaay too close for comfort. Like if I had actually turned my body to the left slightly, our shoulders would collide. Yeaup, it was that guy, walking to the rubbish bin which was conveniently located behind me. Maybe it was a different person, but I'm pretty sure it was him. I had butterflies in my stomach for the whole day.

Then when I caught my reflection while passing some window, I realised how bad I looked today. I didn't have time to shower, and had my hair back in a head band. Oh great.

I didn't see him the next two days. He probably catches the same train every day. I just happen to catch a different train every alternate day. Oh well.

Today, being a Monday, was a bad morning as all Monday mornings are. Luckily my straight bangs were being nice, and stayed tamed, instead of going all porcupine on me. My train was late, and when I boarded, it was more crowded than usual. Usually, once I get on the train, I'd turn to my left and get a seat. Today, I turned to the right cause that was the only vacant seat. I sat down and immediately started to look for my eye candy. My eyes settled on a guy, with black hair and white earphones on. But his hair was different. Maybe he had a hair cut. Then he leaned his head on the window. Nope, that wasn't him. He doesn't do that. Disappointed, I leaned my head against the side of the train, upset that he wasn't there, and that I didn't get a window seat.

There were some people talking right behind me, a guy and a girl. They were speaking some language I couldn't make out. I'm a language idiot too. I pretended that the guy speaking was my orange hoodie guy as I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

As the train slowly came to a stop, the two people behind me got up, and as there were many people alighting at the same stop, there was a queue. I stayed seated and leaned my head against the back of my seat. Then my dream came true. My orange hoodie guy was standing just about 3 metres away from me. He was facing me, and I could feel his eyes on me. Shit, I look like shit. I quickly sat up and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. My eyes were looking in all direction, except in his. He was still talking to the girl, but I was too shocked to even register anything I was hearing. I chided myself for not listening more intently to them when they were talking behind me. Now I couldn't remember how his voice sounded like.

I got up and walked behind them as we alighted. I decided to walk the other way today, the way that he usually walked. I swear that as we were walking, he looked back. Twice. Maybe he didn't, but I'll just pretend he did.

He and the girl talked all the way. Maybe that's his girlfriend. I kept my head down as usual, and tried to pay attention to whatever song was playing from my Blackberry. It was probably Breaking Benjamin's Diary of Jane. Then as we got to the stairs he motioned that he and the girl were going different ways and I think I heard them say "Bonjour".

So he's French.

I rushed up to class which I was already 20mins late for. But hey, it's not my fault. The train was 20mins late.

Til now, 5 hours after that recent incident, I can't stop thinking bout that French orange hoodie guy. I still can't believe that's he's French. Maybe he isn't, but I'm gonna trust my ears on this one.

But who am I kidding? He is probably 10 years older than me and have a girlfriend or something. He's an adult, I'm just a kid that looks like an adult. Plus, no one pays attention to me, a round-braces wearing-untrendy-under average Asian girl. Why would he be an exception? =(

| I like to be alone, but not lonely.

2010-08-20T19:25:00.002+10:00

Remember the times when you're surrounded by people but yet you still feel so lonely?

Say, you're in the canteen, surrounded by tons and tons of people, but yet there you are on the table in the middle, sitting all by yourself.

How about when you're in class, you're surrounded by your classmates, but yet you still feel so lonely?

I know all my classmates, I do talk to them. But then it's like a hi-bye thing. I don't go out with them on the weekends, message them often or even talk to them online. Heck, I don't even know their emails.

It just feels so weird. Back in primary/secondary school, things were different. You had best friends. You all went out together, talked on the phone/msn/sms at least 5 times a week. You all shared secrets, watched out for one another and loved each other and vowed never to part.

Growing up as an only child and not having much people to play/talk with was hard. The only close "friends" I had as a child were my dog and my maid.

The dog died and the maid left.

So what came next? Imaginary friends I guess.

They have different names every week. But they are nice. They played with me and talked to me. They also hug me to sleep every night. They accompany me to school every morning and back home every day. They are there when I need them. And most importantly, they loved me too.

I never verbally talk to them in front of other people, because they can read my mind. Other people can't see them. But I can. But when I start talking to people, they'll disappear. Then all of a sudden, they will appear out of nowhere, like I conjured them up.

Oh wait, but I DID conjure them up. They're not real aren't they? Yes they're not. But who cares? They make me feel more loved and warm than most real people around me do anyways.

I've never felt more lonely in my entire life.

I'm gonna be a sore loser tonight;

2010-06-17T02:03:00.001+10:00

FUCK YOU SWISS CHEESE I HATE YOU! =((

This is the awesome Steven Gerrard.

2010-06-13T16:58:00.005+10:00

Did you see his goal for England vs USA?!

Totally deserves to wear that Captain band on his arm =))

Too bad there was a slip and USA was allowed to score.

Well at least it was a draw, so no biggie!

England will, hopefully, do better in the next few rounds than USA!

Anyways, this World Cup, I'm going for Spain =D

If Torres was the reason why I supported Liverpool in the first place, then he shall be the reason why I support Spain in the first place.

But if Torres were to leave Liverpool, I won't follow him anymore because I've grown to love Liverpool.

SO YEA! GO SPAIN GO! GO SPAIN GO!

And I got a little Spain flag under my dp for tumblr! it's awesome =D

hehe, too bad they're only playing on Wednesday. SO LOOOOONG D:

YEAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

xoxo, sands.

♬ | Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade.

hiho.

2010-06-12T17:32:00.003+10:00

exams were shit.

Biology was not THAT bad, but I wasn't confident of any of my answers so yeaa..

Physics was absolute crap. I couldn't answer most of the questions.

Chemistry was easier than expected, so I'm quite happy =)

But worst of the worst is Psychology.

I am so freakin' disappointed in myself for Psych.

People said the paper was easy. Right then and there, I wanted to kill myself.

You have no idea.

Thinking about the paper just drives me deeper into depression.

It's like when I have the exam paper in front of me, everything just flies out the window.

I couldn't remember a single thing.

My mind was going wonky, I couldn't think straight.

Every option seemed right, I didn't know which one to choose.

Then came the short answers, oh how I royally screwed that section too.

It's like everything I learnt just disappeared into thin air.

It's as if I was doing the paper as a student who knows nothing about Psychology.
Nada, none, zero, zilch.

xoxo, sands.

mmm. hi.

2010-06-03T00:36:00.003+10:00

I'm bored, and it's past midnight alreadyyy.

Exams are in 5 days or so, and I'm so fuckin' screwed for Chemistry.

I HATE ORGANIC CHEMISTRY and all that analysing techniques, AAS AES NMR MS what nots.

I can't even remember their functions and they're worth loads of precious marks.

I used to wish that MYEs were counted for O levels.

But now that MYEs are indeed counted for my enter score, I hate it.

I absolutely hattttte it D:

I guess I have to be careful of what I wish of huh =\

sigh.

XOXO,

sands.

♬ | Lullabies by ATL.

Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams.

hohoho;

2010-06-01T21:38:00.002+10:00

changed my tumblr url to wouldhavemarriedyouinvegas =D

life's aint that great so far.

exams are in a week!

I'm so screwed for Chemistry!

Did a practice exam the other day, and I got 43%

WTF! Tan Kee Hoe would kill me if I got this in his class.

Then again, I didn't study for it so HOPEFULLY studying would help multiply that percentage =\

AND I HATE MOTIONS FOR PHYSICS.

It's like, out of like 20 questions on Motions, I get like 2 maybe 3 questions correct.

WTF!

And like I get almost every other question right for Electronics.

But Motions are worth more in the exam so I'm so BBQ-ed unless my brain can miraculously tune to solve Motions problems.

BAH D:

And you wanna know what's worse?

The mid year exams are counted for my University enter score AKA if I screw up MYEs, I screw up my chances of going into a good uni. AH FML BALLS.

Okay I hope you had a great day and my tagboard is getting spammasied by random blogshops or whatever.

XOXO,

if anyone even reads my blog,

seeya next time =)

| self-hate;

2010-05-24T18:38:00.002+10:00

As the days go by, I feel uglier, and uglier, and uglier.

I hate myself for not having the determination to exercise.

I hate myself for being so lazy.

I haven't even bother finding a dentist yet. I've been here for 3 months, almost 4.

I hate myself for not being able to work hard for school.

I hate myself just cause I'm hating myself.

fml.

xoxo, sandy.

I've got nobody to lean on.

| dormant;

2010-05-16T15:48:00.002+10:00

lalavongs.tumblr.com

I promise I'll be more active there than here =)

plus, less words more photos.

xoxo, sandy.

| Stop animal abuse now, please;

2010-05-04T20:29:00.007+10:00

Hello peeps!

How's life treating you so far!

Can you believe it's May already?!

Well, life has been treating me okay and I can't believe that it's May.

And I walked in the rain today, I hope I will fall sick soon.

I think I need to fall sick. I haven't fallen sick in a while and I think it's time I fall sick so that my body can get stronger you know?

haha, okay this doesn't even make sense.

I just wanna fall sick cause when you have a blocked nose + sore throat or what nots you have a damn cool voice. It's even sexy to an extent no? HAHAHAHA!

Anyways, that wasn't the point of today's post.

THIS is my point for today's post.

This is so f-cking wrong!

The muzzle is like made of wire and it looks like it's chaining the bear onto the sledge.

And wth? Bear on skates? How wrong can it get?!

One day, just one day, the bear will end up killing someone.

Oh wait, it already happened last year to one of the circus guys.

Looking at the picture just breaks my heart and I just wanna go there and slap them until they come to their senses.

I'm not sure how true this is, but you know those dolphin shows you see at Sea World or whatever world?

I heard that sometimes they starve the dolphins so that they'll do the tricks, cause if they do the tricks, the trainers give them fish.

Please prove me wrong cause I really wish what I'm saying ain't true.

STOP ANIMAL ABUSE NOW!

Fcuk man, animals have a life too.

Dammit, all living things do.

It's not like we have a right to force them to do anything that isn't natural to them, just cause they can't voice their thoughts.

Hello? Ever heard of the silent scream?

It's not that animals are cute or what (yes, they are really cute!) that I am against animal abuse.

But I just feel that animals also have their own rights too!

Just cause they can't talk back or voice their thoughts or whatever like humans do, doesn't mean that it gives us a right to abuse them like that.

Put yourself in the shoes of these abused animals (dogs, cats, rabbits, whales, dolphins, bears etc.) HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?

Owners are starving you, not treating you well, physically hurting you.

People taking you away from your comfort zone, putting you in cages/enclosed areas and forcing you to do something you don't like.

Shit man, that's not very fun isn't it?

In fact, it's torturous!

what goes around comes around mates.

Til next time,

XOXO

you'll never know how much they're hurting inside.

♬ | Holly (Would You Turn Me On?) by All Time Low

So when you gonna give it up? You're givin me such a rush.

| Sandstorm;

2010-04-28T23:00:00.002+10:00

Taiwan gang!

Taiwan, 24th November 2009.

Miss you all loads ❤

HELLOHELLO!

So I have a speech problem which doesn't allow me to pronounce words properly.

Or maybe it's just cause I haven't gotten used to talking with my braces on yet since I don't exactly have anyone at home to talk to so which means I can't talk 24/7 and this means that I hadn't exactly practiced speaking with my braces on for the past half a year or so and I'm crapping so yea.

ANYWAYS, I have an english oral presentation coming up this Friday!

My topic is gonna be on commercial whaling, and the HUGE problem here is I can't pronounce the word WHALE or WHALING properly.

They tend to come out weird, like VERY weird D:

I have a problem with pronunciation and yet I have a habit of talking really fast.

So most of the time people have a hard time understanding me.

NOOOOOOOOUUUU D:

Anyways, the weather has been so weird the past weeks.

One week it was cold, max 20deg every day.

The next week it was warm, min 20 deg every day.

This week it is super cold, max 20 deg every day + wind + rain = 18deg

So I was almost chilled to my bones so I had my heater switched on!

It's prolly like almost 10 or 8deg outside or smth since it's like raining now *brrrr*

mm, OKAYBYEGOODNIGHTSWEETDREAMS =)

Til next time!

XOXO,

abrupt ending.

♬ | Raindrops falling on my window pane & heater oscillating.

| An infatuation maybe;

2010-04-22T22:04:00.006+10:00

Hello hello!

Yes this blog ain't dead, well at least not yet. hehe!

Just haven't found an appropriate moment to blog.

Anyways, my grandma and her friend arrived last Saturday! or was it Sunday, mm during the weekends luh.

And they brought loads of food! and my uncle brought them to the supermarket, and they bought even MORE food!

Now the food cabinet is filled to the brim, and so is the fridge.

They're both so filled up that I can't see the back of the cabinet, nor the back of the fridge AND freezer.

Looks like someone won't have to go grocery shopping for weeks. HAHA!

Anyways, went to Mornington Peninsula yesterday!

Absolutely beautiful place, next to the coast.

And the waters are to calm!

I so wanna stay there =)

Grandma all wrapped up! and Aunty Janet =)

No waves, seriously it's THAT calm.

Bath houses!

Uncle: Wa shit my face becoming more and more like china man.

And then we all had ice cream! (Y)

Will upload the photos to FB soon so yea, they're way clearer there! =)

Mm, when I get the chance I'm going to look for a new blog skin.

With a bigger posting space. HAHAHA =)

Okay I had a super long day today, day started at 11am and ended at bout 8.40pm.

At least it ended with Psychology, which is a hella more fun than math or chemistry or whatnots =)

HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY! =)

ciao!

XOXO,

yabadabadooooo.

♬ | Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day.

(actually not really.)

| Romeo, oh Romeo, get out of my face;

2010-04-11T00:50:00.004+10:00

Good day everybodaye!

This is so random but, I have too much metal in my mouth at the moment to have my tongue pierced.

I'm thinking of getting my nose pierced though.

HEH =)

Anyways, just a quick movies update.

I watched Clash Of The Titans (3D) just a few days ago with my mum.

She said it was better than expected, I loved it.

But it could have better though, it was way too short for a movie that was so informative.

It should have been more than 2 hours, not just an hour 40 mins or smth.

But anywho, I liked it =D

And the next day, I watch Percy Jackson & The Olympians: The Lightning Thief.

Didn't catch this at the cinema though, caught it online.

Well, it has almost the same storyline as Clash Of The Titans, but it is set in the modern era.

But the whole "underworld-is-in-hollywood-and-olympus-is-atop-the-empire-state-building" thing just didn't get to me.

It's still not too bad though!

Logan Lerman, at least he's pretty cute right ;)

And just last night I caught 10 Things I Hate About You.

An old movie, released in 1999, starring the legend Heath Ledger.

Totally loved it.

Love the way Heath Ledger could portray his character so well. He's just so into it you know? Like how he was so immersed in playing his famous role as the Joker in The Dark Knight.

He's such a beautiful and talented being, so unfair that he has to leave the world so soon.

R.I.P, you're terribly missed.

Moment of silence.

Just watched Pirates Of The Carribean: At World's End.

Loved it =)

Loved the background music even more!

OKAY BYE!

Catch ya later.

XOXO,

Happy Birthday Alex Pettyfer! (10th April)

♬ | Six Feet Under The Stars by All Time Low.

In the cold you look so fierce but I am warm enough.

| April is the best month ever;

2010-04-09T21:01:00.005+10:00

Heyhey!

So I'm back from Sydney and Adelaide!

Trip was alright =)

Just don't have the mood to blog these few days.

Maybe it's cause there's nothing much going on in my life right now =((

Anyways, APRIL IS THE BEST MONTH EVER! =D

April 6th: Sandy Lalalalavongs

April 7th: Dearest cousin Xiaojie!

April 13th: Forever my bestie Estee!

April 21st: Spastic Astrid!

Isn't it cool that we are all about a week apart from each other?

Estee and I are exactly a week apart, while XJ and Astriddy are bout a week from Estee =D

HAHA, okay so much for my randomeenies.

ANW, Photobucket is giving me some problems recently, and my photos are too big for blogger to upload them in a flash, so I'm only gonna upload one hahah.

They are all in FB anyways =)

Seeya.

XOXO,

Happy Birthday Jesse McCartney ❤

♬ | It's Over by Jesse McCartney.

I used to trippin' over missing you but I'm not anymore.

| I'm sorry I can't be perfect;

2010-03-29T22:57:00.003+11:00

Heyhey!

How's life treating you so far? good? =D

Choir peeps have gone to Italy! Venice. V-E-N-I-C-E.

Oh my gosh. I've always wanted to go there!

Well if I were in Singapore I would most prolly be in MJ and I most prolly would be in PRETTY VENICE right now! hahahhahaha =D

But oh well, I will definitely visit Venice in future.

Maybe I'll marry an uber rich guy and we'll go on a one year honeymoon around the world =D

Well, that's my dream! haha!

To travel around the world.

mm, but first I would have to find the money.

So it's either I work my ass off to get the moolah or simply just marry a rich man.

hmmmmm, the latter sounds tempting, but I think I rather stick to the former plan. HEHE!

One day, I'm going to be rich and have a small little cottage =D
Oh, and a big piece of land behind the house for my little farm!
I'll grow my own stuff, like grapes, apples and mangoes.
Oh, and pretty flowers!
And I'll have animals, lots of them =)

mm, that's just a dream.

ANYWAYS! Made a trip down to Yarra Valley yesterday with mum and uncle!

It's a beautiful place!

Full of green trees, orchards, wineries and animals! HEHE =)

Mum and uncle went wine tasting while I just took photos hahahaha!

Mmmm, I just love taking pictures.

AWESOME SHIZZLES ❤

Here's just 5 photos, cause I'm too lazy to pick and upload them to Photobucket so I decided to use Blogger's uploader (which is super s l o w.)

This is what you see most of the drive.

It's just wonderful =D

Mummy!

My eyes look so small. I think they're shrinking =((

A map of Yarra Valley!

This is so awesome =D

| There's nothing left to say;

2010-03-25T00:11:00.004+11:00

BOOOO =)

how's life back in school?!

tomorrow's the second last day of school for me!

AWESOME SHIZZLES =D

Well, came home today at 12pm and took a two hours nap and woke up at 4.

Have no idea what I did for an hour, then went to hang out my laundry.

Uncle called me around 6 plus and told me to peel potatoes and cut carrots and onions HEE =D

Now I'm a little cook okay! WOOHOO!

hahhahhaha!

Had mashed potato with beef patty and broccoli and carrots.

mm, I'm a meat eater and my uncle is trying to make me an omnivore. TEEHEE =D

It's working, but only with stir-fried veggies aka chinese style =D

Boiled veggies are still.... revolting for me. hah.

Anyways, we have an English exam on Friday, and I have no time to study for it tmr cause my school ends at 9pm, so I only had today to do it.

We are to write an essay of minimum 900 words on the movie "Look Both Ways".

Now, if I haven't mentioned it, I shall mention it now.

I DONT LIKE THAT MOVIE.

It's so sad, full of despair and it makes me sleepy.

BAH D:

Well, I finished with my draft essay and it meets the minimum word limit so YAY! AWESOME SHIZZLES! =DD

but the problem is that now I have to memorise the whole essay, and regurgitate everything on Friday D:

I have STML so that might not work very well. NOOOOOOOO =((

AND I REMEMBERED THAT I HAD TO STUDY FOR MY PHYSICS EXAM ON FRIDAY TOOOOOO!

but it's already midnight now, and I prolly can't get anything in.

So I'll just have to burn the midnight oil tmr =((

BOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T.T

Let's look at a pretty picture to make me happy =D

The Jellyfish.

Taken in Tio Man, Malaysia circa August of 2009.

AIN'T IT JUST AWESOME SHIZZLES?!

Taken during one of my diving trips =)

I miss divinggggg! =((

Til Next Time!

RAWR ❤

wikilabikilahikilahooo.

♬ | Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings

Run baby run, don't ever look back.

| Oopsie daisy;

2010-03-22T22:16:00.003+11:00

Liverpool lost =((

mm, was super happy when Torres scored at the 4th/5th min!

but the euphoria didn't last long when Rooney was granted a penalty which he perfectly miss but Reina didn't grab the ball so Rooney was able to score with the rebound =\

sigh, maybe the ref was bribed, or smth. hahahha. okay maybe not.

mm, shit happens, players get injured.

but why did they ALL get injured at the same time!

star players down, games lost, morale drops.

oh well, that's just life!

still, YNWA ❤

Taken at a small amusement park at St. Kilda, 13th March 2010 =D

OKAY HAI =D

School was so-so today. Was 15 mins late for Biology cause I woke up late. hehe =)

Then it was Chemistry after, where we learnt some stuff bout the Nuclear Magnetic Resonance or whatever that was super difficult to understand.

Then it was maccas with Milka and "Look Both Ways" at the school library on my com.

I really detest English now. It's totes Literature, which I really really suck at.

"Look Both Ways" is the movie we're gonna be tested on this friday, so I had to watch it another time cause I wasn't really tuning in when I watched it in class the first time.

BAH D:

Then came home, Facebook-ed for awhile then took a nap! HEHEE =D

SLEEP IS GOOD.

Math and Physics tmr. mm, should really get down to doing that Physics worksheet but ah knowing me I'll prolly not do it, cause right now, my mind is telling me to hurry up in writing this post so that I can watch Eragon.

HEHEHEHEEEE =D

til next time!

XOXO,

when you walk through a storm, hold your head up high.

♬ | You'll Be In My Heart by Phil Collins.

I will be here, don't you cry.

| It's not the end yet;

2010-03-21T12:26:00.004+11:00

Hello peeeeps =)

Today is the last day of your March holidays no?

Well, next week is gonna be my last week of schoool!

That is, tmr's week. I count my weeks by Mondays FYI =))

WOOHOO!

Followed by two weeks of holidays, then it's gonna be back to school again D:

Here, I don't have any long holidays.

It's 10 weeks school, then 2 weeks break.

So we get a term break, but they're all 2 weeks only.

Well, two weeks is better than nothing! =D

Anyways, the pink on my nails were chipping off, so I splashed a new layer on and then spammed glitter. HEHE!

So now my nails are glitter-fied! =D

Well, whatever makes me happy, I'll go all out to do it =DD

MUMMY'S GONNA BE HERE IN 5 DAYS!

can't wait can't wait! =D

Anyways, my awesome Liverpool is gonna play Man Utd tonight!

Well, I won't be able to watch it here cause we don't have the channel for EPL =((

BUT, World Cup is gonna air for free here so YAYYYYY! =DD

Back to topic, GOOOOOO LIVERPOOL! =DD

I will always love you!

I have never felt okay. Will this ever end?

12 more hours to the match!

XOXO,

once a Red, ALWAYS A RED.

♬ | Empty by The Click Five.

Maybe we're torn apart.

| Mood swings;

2010-03-19T21:39:00.004+11:00

Hello hello =)

I'm currently having really weird mood swings these few days.

And I don't like it.

BAH D:

It's like I'm so happy and then all of a sudden I'm angry and pissed off.

NOT AWESOME.

So to counter attack this stupid phenomenon, I started singing during Math lesson. AHHAHA!

SINGING MAKES ME HAPPY! =DD

And it worked!

I was totally happy again after singing!

In fact, I couldn't stop singing during the lesson and I was fighting the urge to sing really LOUD so I popped in my earphones and listened to some music instead. ahha!

Well, I did sing along as well, but at least I did it softer this time. haha!

HEHE, so now I know what to do whenever I get angry, sad, jealous, happy, excited blah blah blah..

SING! =D

ANW, I am in the midst of watching Chronicles Of Riddick!

So I shall get back to watching it now=))

Vin Diesel ❤

I didn't mean to throw you out, but it was getting too painful for me.

Later!

XOXO,

it's the weekends =)

♬ | A Farewell To A Friendship by A Change Of Pace.

You let her in, you let her win.

| That's it, you're officially out;

2010-03-17T14:37:00.004+11:00

HELLO!

Forgive me,

I'm just thinking out loud =D

and I have to be mean so that it's easier for me=)

That's it.

It's getting shittier and shittier as the days pass.

I thought back and realised how stupid I was.

You were not worth my time at all.

Not even the millions of tears I shed,

Or the amounts of heart aches I suffered.

You took everything for granted, and still do.

That's it.

You are going to GTFO of my life.

I threw all of your stuff away,

then I cleared you out of my head.

I tear you out of my heart,

and then (will) ignore all your messages.

I tell (told) every one that we are through,

cause I'm so much better without you.

BUT YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET HERE UNDER MY SKIN.

NEVER EVER AGAIN.

I SWEAR I'M NEVER GOING TO LET YOU BACK IN.

HELL YEAAAAAA =DDDDD

2 years plus of memories are going down the drain, pictures already went down the drain, and the only thing that is not going to go down the drain is dearest Apple =))

She's everything I held on to, she's like always there for me when you weren't.

She travelled with me every time I went overseas.

The first thing I hug in the morning, and the last thing I hug to sleep =D

So yea, that's the only thing of you that isn't going down the drain.

Gosh, it's been like what?!

8 months.

It's really time for you to OFFICIALLY GTFO OF MY LIFE.

Back then, when my friends questioned me why I chose you over others, I thought they were retarded.

Now I know who was the retarded one.

TEEHEE =D

But I wouldn't say it was a well wasted 2 years, 5 months and 19 days of my life though.

It was just a half wasted half well-spent 2 years, 5 months and 19 days of my life =D

You were everything on my mind, but I was like nothing in yours.

Meh, why am I even wasting time writing all these?! HAHAHHHAHA!

Nonetheless, thank you for all the good times you've given me in that 2 years, but I'm so sorry, the bad times are just more overwhelming.

ISN'T HE CUTE!

=DDD

later!

XOXO,

relieved, maybe.

♬ | Hero/Heroine by Boys Like Girls.

Now I'm running and screaming;

GTFO OUT OF MY LIFE. HAHA!

p.s. I actually forgot you 8 months ago, but like I said, the heart and mind doesn't work very well together. AHHAHA!